Written on November 13th, 1999 - 10:30PM Last Updated: December 5th, 2006 - 8:11PM Last Accessed: April 8th, 2026 - 12:41PM
To make a long story short... I was kicked very hard by a horse in the midsection, completely knocking the wind out of me, and throwing me into the side of a barn. I have been around horses for over nine years, so this was a freak accident. God gave me no warning ahead of time, so when it happened I came to the point of realizing whether or not I was ready to die.
Through it, Yahweh showed me that I was indeed ready to die, but not unless my purpose for living had been accomplished. As I realized it hadn't, I called out in my spirit (as I was still unable to speak or breathe):
I was thinking of a dream about (Joel 2:32) I had a few weeks before. At just that point I began to breathe again, and I knew I would be ok—a prayer then poured out of me that this accident would somehow bring glory to Himself.
The horse kick had severely lacerated my liver and I was bleeding internally. The doctors had said I would probably need surgery. And I replied that I would have to think about that. They responded to the effect of, "well, if you need surgery, then there's nothing to think about!"
But I told them, from my heart in faith, "I have no doubt God will heal me."
The bleeding was miraculously stopped by Yahweh within two days—with me needing no pain medication the whole time! The doctors were completely surprised, and some in training did not believe I hadn't taken any pain medication. But I was praising God the whole time, for I knew I would be bringing Him glory through this story of His salvation!
In addition, my faith for Him was tried in the fire and came out purer! Glory to the Most High, for He will wholly save us!
Discerning Yahweh
We are always in the hand of God. If we love Him, He is constantly watching over us; if we are wicked before Him, He merely knows us from afar.
Those who walk with Him are said to be blind, because we do not see as the world sees. For we do not look to what appears but to what is unseen. We trust for the light that Yahweh gives.
Who is blind, but my servant? Or who is as deaf as my messenger whom I send? Who is as blind as he who is at peace, and as blind as Yahweh's servant? (Isaiah 42:19)
Many times we will not expect or be ready for what happens to us in this natural world, but as we walk with Yahweh, nothing may move us.
Through this experience, I came to understand that regardless of whether I knew such a trial was coming, Yahweh would be there. I simply had to call upon Him, trusting Him in that moment as I had when I first placed my entire life in His hands by faith.
Likewise, you may learn that He is true to His promise to save and heal us according to our faith. I trusted His already revealed Word, that His Son was bruised for my sin and bore my pain and sickness—I did not need to carry it, for He did for me.
Therefore, I was able to say with confidence that I had no doubt that God would heal me. And according to His word and my my faith in Him, He did!
Discern Yahweh in this, that He is able to do all things; that He loves us and wants us to depend upon Him in all things and at all times. Although we may be caught off guard by things in life, He is never; grow in faith by learning to lean on Him in those sudden trials.
As you read this site, you will hopefully come to know Yahweh more fully.
But all of this continuing knowledge is useless unless and until you come into union with Him. I use the word union because it is truly a marriage. It is that deep connection we all seek, for which we most often look in other people. However, the truth is that our hearts will only be fulfilled when we enter that union in fullness with the One Who made us.
This is the grace of God, that He has not stayed distant for us only to worship as Creator. But He has come unto us, even become one of us—in His Son, ChristJesus—in order to share an intimate union with us. He desires such closeness that it truly will envelope our entire life, transforming us into something new and wonderful.
You may have already entered this union with Him and only seek to know Him better through reading here. But if you have not, as you do read, let this Gospel sink into your heart as you read it now.
God loves you, and has cast your sins into the sea. He has sent His only Son as the Savior of the world—that includes you.
That Son, JesusChrist, was born as a man through a virgin who had given her life to Yahweh; He lived without sin, reflected the glory of His Father, God, in all His words and deeds, and was persecuted even unto death because of it.
His death upon a cross was the powerful explosion that separated you from your life of death. It remains for you, now, to enter into that death with Him. As you die to the one you are now, a person separated from God from your many sins, you will be born anew, with a nature predisposed to live rightly. This gift is free to you, with nothing you can do to earn it. It is the mercy of God to offer it to you, as He loves you so much! All you must do is receive it by trusting Him to have delivered you. Simply place your life in His hands and embrace the freedom that came through that death on the cross.
The Gospel is that Jesus did not remain dead, but rose again on the third day after His crucifixion! Death could not hold Him, as He was without sin. And so death will not be able to hold you, as you identify with Him fully through your trust in Him. Let go of yourself and confess Him as Lord of your life. The power of His death and resurrection will work in you all that your Creator has destined for you. You will truly enter a new life and experience that intimate union you have been seeking all of your life.
So ponder these words as you read here of this great God—Yahweh—and all that He has revealed to His creation. Let His Spirit testify to your heart that these words are true, that God is Love, and that He sent His Son so that you might receive the life that is unbound by time and space. As you feel that witness in your heart, simply believe and receive what He is offering to you, even now, and begin your new life as a child of God.
Please write to me and let me know when you take this step, as I will be your brother in Christ—we will be one in Him!
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